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ARE YOU DRAGGING AROUND RESISTANT PARTS OF YOURSELF?

Last night, I raised my hand at an NLP conference when the facilitator asked if anyone needed help reconciling two parts of Self in conflict. Despite the kicking, biting, screaming child inside of me, I raised my hand and explained, “Part of me is very ready to begin the podcasting that I, and my peers, have been building to, but another part, a child part of me, is resisting podcasting and keeping our efforts stuck. I feel like I am dragging this inner child around by her foot, clawing, kicking and screaming. She doesn’t want to do it.”

I was ushered to the front of the room for his NLP demonstration as I whispered to myself, “It’s a choice. Give in to resistance or let yourself change.” My knee pain, present for several weeks, turned to fire when I stepped forward.

At the guidance of the facilitator, I was able to integrate one part of me — the angry, desperate inner child that was refusing a repeat act of the ways she felt when her mother was running for elections, with another part of me — the wise, sage that loves her life – the monkeys, the wonder, her friends, her careers, scuba, ski all that Wonderland has offered this Alice, knows her abilities, and wants to help others fall in love with their lives too.

That was wonderful, gracious, and amazing enough. No more resistance. Just peace and readiness.

But — check this out — when I woke up this morning, no knee pain.

Does it surprise you that I was forcing a part of myself to do something she didn’t want to do, feeling like I was “dragging her around by her foot, kicking and screaming” — and that when that came to an end — my knee would feel no pain?

We can choose to continue to heal the same old ways that have failed us in the past.

Or we can try something new.

It’s a choice. 

What will you choose?